Idleness

Idleness is not doing nothing.  Idleness is being free to do anything-Floyd Dell

I used to be the person who loves my life and my job.. Yes, my job is not boring, I have a caring boyfriend, a naughty cute cat, and pianos.. But sadly, lately I don’t feel that anymore..I’m so overloaded.. I’ve done everything these past few months.. From being a nanny, a housekeeper, a shopping assistant, etc.. Which are totally not my own business.. I want to be idle.. I want to do anything I want.. I’m cranky.. I need more sleep.. I need a vacation! I want to love my life again.. Aaarrggghhh*&^%!

Felicity

Pleasure in the job puts perfection in the work – Aristotle

Ooo.. my holiday is almost over.. Actually, I have longer holiday than most people, but it doesn’t feel long enough for me.. Well, last year I only work 3 days a week, and this year I have to work 6 days a week.. I know I only work for few hours a day, but I miss waking up late, morning coffee, and morning TV shows..

I always said that I love my job.. And it’s true.. I love my job, both as a musician and a teacher.. I love the feeling I feel when I’m on stage.. And I love teasing the children.. LOL… This summer, I started to work for a new music school.. At first, I was happy working there.. Yeah well, I was looking for a teaching job in a music school when my boyfriend offered me this job.. so why should I waste this opportunity.. After a month or two, I felt uncomfortable with this job.. They did unprofessional things that’s against our working contract.. And day by day it got worse.. Since then, working there became a burden to me.. But I kept holding on because I didn’t want to waste such opportunity and literally I didn’t have anything better to do..beside my work at the kindergarten *which I really love*.. Is it the kindergarten where I work is too nice, or this music school is too horrible.. I don’t know, I just feel really uncomfortable.. Or is this music school  just a standard workplace, full of pressure and competition.. The school did another awful thing to me today, that made me think about resigning.. *sighs* what is a job without pleasure.. But I can’t just leave my job because of my ego.. I have to think about my parents and my expenses :-p..

P.S this is my favorite holiday ever.. I got a chance to watch my favorite singer live.. cool!

The Juggler

A jazz musician is a juggler who uses harmonies instead of oranges – Benny Green

Haloha!! Haloha!! It’s been a long time since my last post.. I’ve been so busy with too many things, including indulging myself with free times.. Oh yes, I really love spending time doing completely nothing.. All I need are a cup of coffee, a couch, and the free time..But Free Time become so much more precious lately..

OK, so I just got back from “work”… Tired? yes.. But my job as a music performer is more a pleasure than a job.. Why?

# Because I can wear gown and make up to my workplace.. How nice it is..I always love gown since I was a kid.. I would wear gown everyday if my mom had let me to wear it.. LOL…And I also learn to wear make up from my job..Beside, I can check on the latest trend in evening gown.. hohoho.. People wear beautiful gowns to wedding party..

# People are willing to listen my music.. Yes, because when I play my music at home, some people will feel annoyed. .%$#^!! My brother usually ask me to stop playing.. My mom,she turn up the TV volume.. %$#^!!

# I play with a group of great people who loves to make music.. Musician who loves their job more than money give a good influence other’s mood to play better..

# Seeing people in love is like watching romantic movie..

# It makes good money.. $_$!! Within half day, I can make 1/3 my monthly salary..hoho..

# My lover makes great music.. and the best part, I can be a part of it..  *bukan promosi ato sombong ini..kekeke*.. I love his arrangements, I love the way he play his music, the way he feels his music, I love the way he makes any type of music acceptable.. I’ve just realized how good he is on his job.. While everyone else stop making music with their heart, my lover still stick with his idea of real music.. I adore him for that.. Though sometimes he’s so stressed out, but I know he loves his job and at the end he has that look on his face..The look that we call satisfaction..

Being Independent

“As every cat owner knows, nobody owns a cat”-Ellen Perry Berkeley-

I’ve just experienced the power of belief.. I am a cat person.. I love cat more than dogs, because cats are more independent, and they don’t like to lick me.. The first cat I own, was a gray cute female cat. The second one, was male cat who doesn’t like people.. Both of them gone within a year.. The third cat,very adorable when he was still a kitten.. But more like a thief when he grow up.. I just realize he hasn’t been home for weeks.. Kinda miss him a little bit.. My fourth cat, is a very special cat.. He’s a siamese cat who walked into my garden, and through some catch and run episode, he finally joined the family..I don’t allow him to go outside as the other cats.. though he really want to.. I don’t feed him fish, instead i give him cat food.. But anyway, he’s a smart cat who always find a way to go outside..

Last night, he went outside.. And we couldn’t find him anywhere.. Till morning.. till afternoon.. so worry.. till evening.. my family had already made some theory.. From he run away with my neighbor’s cats to die from falling.. But I still believe he will come back.. no matter what.. At 10 pm, my friend came to pick something.. When I opened the gate, I could hear my cat crying.. LOL.. sorry cat, I’m not laughing at your misery.. But the fact that you can not be a stray cat is amusing… Then we had catch and run episode once more, until we can get him back to the house.. Oh yeah, he’s very hungry.. bet he didn’t eat anything all day.. So glad he’s back.. Love you cat.. I know I can’t own you, but please be nice at home..

Window Painting

“No man needs a vacation so much as the man who has just had one.”-Elbert Hubbard

I head this quote few months ago from my favorite TV show.. Really love it.. There were times when I hated holiday. But after I worked, I really appreciate holiday.. My summer holiday ended last week, and I had to go back to work on Monday..Soooooo lazy.. felt like I didn’t have enough holiday, although I’ve had one whole month..

I came early on Monday, gave my hugs to everyone at work, met some new colleague, and I was told that we need to redecorate the room.. It’s not fair.. everyone decorate the room in groups of two.. But I’m alone.. Fortunately, I’m a part-timer so I don’t have so many works as others, and I only have to stay half day..

Day 1, Still in the holiday mood..I wondered what to do.. I knew I had to decorate the music room, but I had got no idea nor material.  Everyone got a theme, but music room’s theme will always be music so I thought I could use my old decoration.  Everybody got their windows cleared so they can paint a new picture on it, luckily my window painting was still there, so I didn’t have to repaint. Though honestly the windows needed a repaint.. So I went around the school, visited every classes.. Stayed there for a while, had a little talk.. Then I went home..

Day 2, I made up my mind, OK, maybe I’ll just help others.. So I visited one of my colleague room, stayed there and helped her cutting some papers..  Suddenly, a surprising news came around, her partner who had worked for years were leaving the school cause she got a better job.. We had a “little talk” there about the school and the principal ( actually I was only a listener since I had no problem with the company ). Then suddenly the principal passed by, and came into the class.. And she asked me,”How was your Music Room ?”..  Had a bit of guilty feelings, I said to her “I’m still waiting for the material, Miss.. By the way, do I need to repaint the windows?” Then she said, ” It’s so ugly right? OK, I’ll ask the house boy to clean it so you can repaint it.. Glad you asked”.. OMG.. That’s when I realized what I did… I had just gave myself a job.. I have to paint 5 big windows by myself.. Little Talk punishment? Or maybe deep inside me, I was jealous that I didn’t get painting job?? LOL

Soulmate

” Soulmate is the one who makes life come to life ” A quote from Richard Bach..

I’m actually a pretty romantic person.. I have belief in soulmate, love, and destiny.. I’ve been in love for times.. I can fall in love easily, compared to most people..But not all of them makes life come to life like Mr. Bach said.. Some of them even made my life miserable..

Among all love I’ve ever had, only two of them can make me feel alive..Amazingly, I have the same problem with those two relationship.. I met the first one when I was still a teenager, we dated for about one year then I gave up. I don’t know why, but things seemed not right by then..After that, I dated some men.. One suicidal spoiled boy, an artist who is too busy with his world, one abusive boyfriend ( Yes, I have to admit he emotionally abused me ), a man that is too common.. Then I finally found another man that can make life come to life.. And again, I found the same problem with the first one.. I began to think, is that the men that makes my life come to life? or the problem? Or we have to struggle more to be happy?

Life – Dreams = Job

Inilah semboyan hasil keseringan liat iklan Eureka di Star World.. Setiap liat rumus ini di iklan Eureka, gua selalu merasa sangat bahagia.. Uda ampir setaon sejak hari gua resmi jadi sarjana *dengan predikat yang penting lulus*.. Sejak itu, kerjaan gw berputar-putar di sekitar dunia anak-anak , entertainment dan belajar *tetep*..

Dari dulu gua memang selalu suka bidang entertainment.. cieehh… akhirnya gua diberikan jalan juga.. walaupun cuma di bidang wedding music entertainment, tapi gua cukup puas.. dari pekerjaan ini, gua bisa merasakan indahnya menghasilkan uang dari pekerjaan yang menyenangkan… cukup menyenangkanlah maen musik rame-rame, ngeliatin penganten-penganten jalan-jalan, suap-suapan, cium-ciuman, potong kue, denger kisah perjalanan cinta kasih sampe kadang-kadang pengen menangis terharu.. hohoho… Dari kerjaan ini juga gua banyak mengenal orang-orang yang satu visi dan misi sama gua.. sungguh pekerjaan yang menyenangkan..

Tapi gua ga pernah tuh membayangkan diri gua bekerja sama anak-anak.. Dulu bayangan gua anak-anak itu sulit… tapi ternyata, dunia anak2 bisa membuat gua merasa muda sekaligus tua..Merasa muda pas harus bertingkah bodoh ga tau malu buat menarik perhatian mereka..seperti joged-joged ato memasang muka-muka aneh.. Merasa tua pas mereka bertanya,” Miss, how old are you?”.. Walau jawaban gua udah dimuda-mudain, tetep aja komentar mereka ” Wow.. so old.. How Many Children do you have?…. What? You’re not married??”..Duuuhhh…Yah, tapi mereka lucu.. jadi dimaafkan.. walaupun ada beberapa yang kadang-kadang menyebalkan, tapi tetap dimaafkan.. karena pada dasarnya anak balita itu lucu.. Jadi ingatlah, kalo punya anak balita sebaiknya dinikmati.. karena begitu mereka bukan balita lagi.. mereka jadi kurang lucu.. ahaha.. Selain itu mereka juga mengajarkan gua banyak hal, yang sebetulnya sepele.. tapi kadang-kadang kita2 yang orang dewasa  ini *ceritanya..* lupa juga.. Seperti pentingnya kerendahan hati, keseriusan, dan cara pandang yang positif.. Gua juga belajar gimana mereka bisa berteman akrab sama siapa aja.. tanpa memilih-milih karena prasangka dan praduga yang biasanya kita pikirin dulu sebelum bisa akrab dan percaya sama orang laen.. Gimana mereka bisa memaafkan dengan mudah, tinggal disuruh salaman & bilang “sorry” aja mereka bisa langsung baikan dan ketawa ketiwi lagi *walau kadang-kadang 10 menit kemudian udah ribut lagi”

Yah, intinya.. rasanya pekerjaan yang gua jalani sekarang ini bukannya tanpa mimpi.. gua tetap bermimpi, gua tetap bisa hidup dari pekerjaan-pekerjaan menyenangkan ini… Walaupun gua dikasih pekerjaan dengan gaji yang luar biasa tapi ga bisa dinikmati, lebih baik gua tetap setia dengan pekerjaan gua..

Life – Dreams = Job

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Job + Dreams = Life